Coming home

I don't know why but i'm really taken in with those two words lately. Coming home. It feels really comfortable and blissful saying that. It gives me a picture of walking this special path with this light guiding me until i've reached the most beautiful place ever.

I've been bogged down with assignments and frustrations in life for the past month. Sometimes it is during times like these that you feel like giving up for good, and yet there's an inner voice telling me to hold on. The Master's words rang through my head, "do not get too excited or highstrung, keep your mind calm and quiet", and i've tried to remember that at all times. Be the calming presense in the midst of chaos, just like the eye of the hurricane.

Sometimes we need to take time off for ourselves, to review everything. I was reading news on BuddhistChannel and Orlando Bloom did just that. Check it out here. I'm totally amazed that he chants everyday. Respects to him! I guess i should take some time off as well to just dwell in the stillness without a care - its weird but the outcome is that i will be able to see things in a bigger perspective after that.

Music in the Dharma has always been a source of inspiration to me. Especially the song 'She Carries Me' originally sung by Jennifer Berezan, but re-sung by Reverend Heng Sure. The lyrics are so meaningful that i never get bored of listening to it. The entire song is just an embodiment of great compassion.

These days, due to the many happenings around me, i've learnt to just dwell in the present and to let go of worries. I've learnt to just fully live in my Faith. It is a beautiful feeling. I have many dreams and aspirations - i wish to be able to contribute something, to share with people the joy of the Dharma, i wish to be able to compose praises and songs, and to travel to the sacred places of the world. These are part of my dreams list.

I feel like i've come home at last. When in quiet solitude and just playing a cd of praises in the name of the Buddhas and Bodhisattvas, i feel like i'm in the midst of a great big family. I feel that the void inside me has been filled. Just the thought of their great compassion and grace in saving living beings gives me strength in all that i do. I may have come home at last.